21 things that I’ve learned in 21 years

It’s my birthday today. YAAAAY. I’m 21

Learn to say NO without  need to explain yourself. You don’t have to, and you don’t have to explain why.

Don’t please people if you feel uncomfortable.  No matter how hard you try, it will never be good enough for some.

Life throws you into adulting without warning. Don’t be afraid. But it isn’t simple, so be prepared.

YOU can accomplish whatever you desire. Don’t underestimate yourself, 99% of people around you are going to do that for you anyways.

Not everyone is going to like you. And you aren’t going to like everyone. So just be polite and fight through.

Stop waiting for the change, make it. You don’t like the way your life goes? Make a change.

Say thank you and please. Be grateful, for everything, even the bad stuff in your life. And learn to ask for help if you need it. It’s better to look stupid for 5 minutes, than to be stupid for a lifetime.

There is beauty everywhere, notice it and you will live a happy life.

Some people in your life are blessing and others, come as a lesson. Don’t regret meeting anyone.

It is better to keep silent when angry.

Stop caring about what people think of you. They don’t know you.

It’s okay to make mistakes, you will learn faster that way.

Let go of toxic people and feelings in your life. You choose what you want in your life. If there is someone who makes you feel miserable every time you meet them, let go. If you feel hate towards someone, let go. It only breaks you, not them.

Make the most of every moment. Take chances, leave your comfort zone, spend time doing what you love.

It’s never too late for anything. You can choose a different path in your life everyday, don’t be afraid to do it.

Be kind anyway. Be kind to them even if they are mean. Seriously, you will feel better, and nothing makes them look more stupid.

Don’t be negative. No matter what happens, stay positive and keep your head up.

It’s okay to get lost and have no idea what to do with your life anymore.

You don’t have to fight for something, if you’ve lost interest in winning. It’s okay.

Your life is how you make it. No one is going to make your life perfect, that’s your job. Negative brings more negatives. So smile, fight and never give up!

Fairy tales are possible, and highly probable. Everything can end well, and it will.


3 Years Of Amazing Relationship

Oh my, time really flies fast. I’ve been with my amazing boyfriend for 3 years already. 3 beautiful and magical years.



Therefore, I feel obligated to share with you, few things I’ve discovered over the years.

Be yourself. I know this takes time. But when the moment comes, there is nothing more beautiful. Show your dorky, creepy, crazy and childish side to your love. Be crazy together.

Listen and learn. Don’t listen to respond, don’t listen to listen, listen to learn. Whether your love has something worrying them, or they are just describing how boring their day was. If you really listen and care, your partner will feel more loved and important.

The best feeling is, when you know someone better, than they know themselves. When you know how to make them laugh in the toughest situations.

Communicate. I can’t emphasize this one enough. If there is a problem, talk. There is no way around it. You don’t like this or that? Talk. You feel happy. Tell it to your loved one. They will understand, or at least they will acknowledge. And even that is better than suffering right?

Enjoy your interests together. Find what you both love and enjoy it. We love to cook together. So we make sure to use every opportunity to enjoy some quality time in the kitchen. Oh, and of course we love to eat it afterwards. Hobbies are better with two.

Express love and affection with kisses, hugs and compliments. When we started dating, and I realized that this was going to be a life long story, I was worried. Everyday, we see couples on the streets (if they are even couples), not holding hands, not talking together, nothing. I was scared that the chemistry will wear off after a few years. It didn’t happen. And I promise you it won’t. You just have to work for it.

Spend a lot of time. None of the above is possible if you aren’t spending enough time together. Whenever we are separated, we text, constantly. We could say that we are constantly messaging to each other for 3 years. Without break.


Add some flowers into your life.

Recently, I’ve bought some flowers. And I must say, they are magnificent.

I think many of you already know this, but looking at flowers everyday is magical. It doesn’t only make you feel happy, but also shows you how beautiful this world is!

When I was living on my own, in my tiny apartment, I had no plants whatsoever. I didn’t really worry about it. But when I returned back to live with my parents, I realized that I really missed the nature. My mom really loves flowers, so she puts them everywhere she can. And I see why. My moods are better, and I appreciate even the smallest things lately.

So I’ve bought bonsai (Carmona Microphila) and orchid (Phalaenopsis multiflora).



This is not my particular bonsai. I have to replant him first, so I’ll show you later.

I hope I can keep them alive, because every plant I ever had, didn’t last more than a month. I keep forgetting about them. So, I will do my best this time.

What is your favorite flower (plant)? Do you have any?

There is no better way to enjoy spring, than with nature. So let’s all leave our computers and phones, and spend some time outside!

Is this a joke??

Oh my… so I don’t have any responsibilities right now and still, I don’t have enough time for this place.

I can finally see!

I have my contact lenses, finally. I know it’s weird to have my first pair at the age of 20. But what can I do? My doctor refused to prescribe them to me. (I have astigmatism.) I had to change doctors, because she was in an accident and wasn’t able to work anymore. New one happily prescribed them to me. So here I am, finally able to see without glasses. I’m so happy.

img_3103.jpgLook at my lens case, I love it so much.

Do you wear lenses?  What do you find more comfortable, glasses or lenses? Why?

I like lenses better. For several reasons, I hate wearing 2 pairs of glasses on 3D movies, and I don’t even feel lenses in my eyes.

Practice makes perfect!

So I started to practice some bits and pieces of graphics. Right now it’s very far from being fine (even though my boyfriend claims otherwise), but at least I’m learning the interface and it’s fun.



What a joke!

Ok, now on a serious note. I needed a quick fix yesterday, so I grabbed first tea I could find in my cupboard, and guess what I’ve got?! The shortest  tea bag string thing ever….


Is this some type of joke tea makers are pulling on me?

Anyways, I had a good laugh. And now I know now, why I love loose leaf tea much more.


University drop out or University applicant?

I have decided to write more about my personal life as it is. Why not?

At least you’ll know me better, right?

So there are few things I have on mind recently.

1. Am I obsessed THAT MUCH?!

Okey, so I love tea, especially matcha. I used to drink matcha late a lot during winter. But, two to three visits to Starbucks a week is still manageable.

But Matcha frappe came out recently. The same Matcha frappe I drank in Japan. And yesterday I realized I had one every day since it came out. So I’m much more obsessed than it seemed.


And they now remember my name in Starbucks.

Cashier: “And what’s your name? Maria?”
2. University drop out or University applicant??

Just recently I came to a decision I don’t see myself as a Japanese studies graduate. Am I seriously able to sit behind a table all day, translating? Not really. I’m different, I’m creative. I can study languages in my free time anyways. So I dropped out of university.

I was always interested in design. It would make 10x higher income. I could actually CREATE stuff. I could be my own boss. Why shouldn’t I try. So, here I am, I applied. However, there is one problem, MATH. I hate math, my mind works differently than math. I don’t get it. I don’t want to get it.

So I came hope and shared this gracious idea with my lovely family. What were the reactions, you ask?

Mom: “Japan is the only thing, you were ever able to do! Are you serious? What now? You are good for nothing now.”

This made me mad.

I am good enough, and I will achieve anything! Just wait, I’ll prove you wrong!

So, everyone else thinks it’s a good idea. Even my Japanese language teacher, who teaches me since I was 15.

3. I changed my style! (or enhanced it if you will)

Hope it lasts.

Yeah, it took me a while to find my style. I would fancy street fashion. Clothes which looked different from the “casual” ones. So in the last few years I was wearing all black boring outfits good for nothing. Hoping to wake up one day, and find the perfect style.

Not anymore, ladies and gentlemen, not anymore.

I found it, well, not really I just opened my eyes. But change is still change.

4. Old friendships, good friendships!

I cut all cords from my past, hoping to see someone care.

It’s kind of a long story, you know how when you become happy people start having problems with that? Well, that happened.

And I decided to care about me for once. Therefor, I cut all people who destroyed my inner peace.

BUT, this one friend, whom I know, since we were little kids, came forward. And that made me so happy. She is actually a person with whom I spent almost all of my student life since kindergarten. And oh I miss those times. So we went for a coffee, and tomorrow we meet for breakfast. I’m so happy about this.

She is actually this beautiful girl, who is great in everything she does. She has style, is great at athletics, studies super hard school and is very nice. And I don’t get it. How is it even possible.


So that would be all for today. I will get better at this, I hope.

Getting myself out there is really hard.

Is there anything amazing that happened to you recently? Let me know.



10 things you probably don’t know about me.

 10. I hate, hate, hate spiders and earwigs. 

Whenever I see one I have a serious panic attack. It all started when I was a little girl and I spent several summers at my grandma’s house. They had gooseberries planted (I love gooseberries), big family of earwigs lived on the plants and I would have to face them every time I wanted to eat some.

9. I am proper Virgo

For a long time I believed I was Leo (I’m born 23rd of August, which in my country still counts as Leo). However, my personality is totally Virgo like. And I embrace it.

8. I am a quiet person, but once I get to know you I can be pretty
open and crazy.

I’m quite shy, when I don’t know you.  But when I feel comfortable, there is no stopping me, I’m talking without a break. I do stupid childish stuff, just to make you laugh. Even though often times, I feel like I annoy everyone around me.

7. I overcame depression, without help. (Yes, it’s possible)

Yes, I had suicidal thoughts (God, even attempts), extremely low self esteem and suffered from very deep depression. I did somehow manage to overcome that. And I’m proud. I’m positive, smiling and happy now.

6. I love to stay home instead of going out.

I am total home buddy. Every time I make plans to spend time socially, I regret it afterwards. I love to stay home with a nice cup of tea and a good movie.

5. I have very vivid and crazy dreams.

My dreams could be shot into full-length movies. Some are creepy, horror like, and others funny and beautiful. I can fly in most of them. I once dreamt I died, like my heart stopped beating and I didn’t breathe anymore. It was an interesting experience even though I woke up surprised to be still alive.

4. I love the sea, ocean and tea.

Those are my obsessions. Sadly, where I live, there is no sea. So I enjoy every moment I can while on vacation.

3. I totally changed in the last few years. 

This may come as a surprise to some of you. But I am not who I was 3 years ago. But who is right? Well, I walked out of friendships that were destroying me. I started to do what I find good for me, not what others think.

2. My name has been changed during my life from Jana (Jane) to Maria.

Yes, this happened, but not by me. I was just 1 year old. It’s a long story, I might talk about it more later.

1. I have terrible eyesight.

I have to wear glasses and I hate it. But what can we do, I bought the most beautiful ones I could find, hoping it would help. Guess what, it did! So now I feel okay with wearing glasses, because without them… well, let’s say you wouldn’t be reading this.

10 Simple Self Care Ideas

Self care is important. No doubt about that. But how exactly can we take care of ourselves?

I present you 10 simple ways to self care, you should definitely try to introduce to  your everyday habits.


  1. Eat more fruit and vegetables to stay healthy and fresh. Fruit and vegetables are awesome. They work miracles with your body and mind.
  2. Drink tea. Make it habit to enjoy your favorite cup of tea, even if it’s just a few minutes in the morning. Stop the time around you and calm your soul.
  3. Give yourself a break. Step away from your desk at least once an hour,that’s an order!  Clear your head and come back with fresh thoughts. I’ve once studied for the whole day without break, and trust me, the outcome was terrible.
  4. Spend more time in nature. Fresh air, amazing scenery… and of course nature. What’s more beautiful. Go for a walk and I assure you, you will find something beautiful.
  5. Keep track of your goals. Set new ones and feel motivated. You can review them daily, so you feel motivated.
  6. Do more of what you love. Enjoy your hobbies.
  7. Nourish your relationships. Call your family and make sure they know you love them. Meet up with your friends, because friends are awesome.
  8. Dance more often. There is nothing more relaxing than forgetting all your problems and jump around for a few moments. You can dance while preparing your breakfast or washing your teeth.
  9. Get more sleep. Do you sleep enough? Only on the weekends, right? I’m guilty too. Go to bed a little earlier. You can thank me later.
  10. Once in a while, spoil yourself. After a whole semester of not spending any more money than needed, I decided to stop at my favorite cafe and I also bought planner I’ve dreamed of for years. It was the best feeling ever.

I believe that after trying some of those types, you’ll feel motivated and happy.

Do you have some other ideas? Feel free to share them with me!