10 things you probably don’t know about me.

 10. I hate, hate, hate spiders and earwigs. 

Whenever I see one I have a serious panic attack. It all started when I was a little girl and I spent several summers at my grandma’s house. They had gooseberries planted (I love gooseberries), big family of earwigs lived on the plants and I would have to face them every time I wanted to eat some.

9. I am proper Virgo

For a long time I believed I was Leo (I’m born 23rd of August, which in my country still counts as Leo). However, my personality is totally Virgo like. And I embrace it.

8. I am a quiet person, but once I get to know you I can be pretty
open and crazy.

I’m quite shy, when I don’t know you.  But when I feel comfortable, there is no stopping me, I’m talking without a break. I do stupid childish stuff, just to make you laugh. Even though often times, I feel like I annoy everyone around me.

7. I overcame depression, without help. (Yes, it’s possible)

Yes, I had suicidal thoughts (God, even attempts), extremely low self esteem and suffered from very deep depression. I did somehow manage to overcome that. And I’m proud. I’m positive, smiling and happy now.

6. I love to stay home instead of going out.

I am total home buddy. Every time I make plans to spend time socially, I regret it afterwards. I love to stay home with a nice cup of tea and a good movie.

5. I have very vivid and crazy dreams.

My dreams could be shot into full-length movies. Some are creepy, horror like, and others funny and beautiful. I can fly in most of them. I once dreamt I died, like my heart stopped beating and I didn’t breathe anymore. It was an interesting experience even though I woke up surprised to be still alive.

4. I love the sea, ocean and tea.

Those are my obsessions. Sadly, where I live, there is no sea. So I enjoy every moment I can while on vacation.

3. I totally changed in the last few years. 

This may come as a surprise to some of you. But I am not who I was 3 years ago. But who is right? Well, I walked out of friendships that were destroying me. I started to do what I find good for me, not what others think.

2. My name has been changed during my life from Jana (Jane) to Maria.

Yes, this happened, but not by me. I was just 1 year old. It’s a long story, I might talk about it more later.

1. I have terrible eyesight.

I have to wear glasses and I hate it. But what can we do, I bought the most beautiful ones I could find, hoping it would help. Guess what, it did! So now I feel okay with wearing glasses, because without them… well, let’s say you wouldn’t be reading this.


10 Simple Self Care Ideas

Self care is important. No doubt about that. But how exactly can we take care of ourselves?

I present you 10 simple ways to self care, you should definitely try to introduce to  your everyday habits.


  1. Eat more fruit and vegetables to stay healthy and fresh. Fruit and vegetables are awesome. They work miracles with your body and mind.
  2. Drink tea. Make it habit to enjoy your favorite cup of tea, even if it’s just a few minutes in the morning. Stop the time around you and calm your soul.
  3. Give yourself a break. Step away from your desk at least once an hour,that’s an order!  Clear your head and come back with fresh thoughts. I’ve once studied for the whole day without break, and trust me, the outcome was terrible.
  4. Spend more time in nature. Fresh air, amazing scenery… and of course nature. What’s more beautiful. Go for a walk and I assure you, you will find something beautiful.
  5. Keep track of your goals. Set new ones and feel motivated. You can review them daily, so you feel motivated.
  6. Do more of what you love. Enjoy your hobbies.
  7. Nourish your relationships. Call your family and make sure they know you love them. Meet up with your friends, because friends are awesome.
  8. Dance more often. There is nothing more relaxing than forgetting all your problems and jump around for a few moments. You can dance while preparing your breakfast or washing your teeth.
  9. Get more sleep. Do you sleep enough? Only on the weekends, right? I’m guilty too. Go to bed a little earlier. You can thank me later.
  10. Once in a while, spoil yourself. After a whole semester of not spending any more money than needed, I decided to stop at my favorite cafe and I also bought planner I’ve dreamed of for years. It was the best feeling ever.

I believe that after trying some of those types, you’ll feel motivated and happy.

Do you have some other ideas? Feel free to share them with me!


Why Is Self Care So Important?


Nowadays,  we have barely time to relax. Our everyday life is so hectic and stressful. We don’t have time for proper meals, our hobbies and most importantly, we don’t have enough time to relax and take care of ourselves. And it’s so easy, that many of us feel like self-care is something “special”.

Self care prevents you from nervous breakdown. We are all guilty. We push ourselves too much, without even realizing our limit. Often reaching it and feeling miserable, exhausted and ready to give up.

Self care clears your mind.  When you get stuck on a complicated problem to deal with, and you have no idea what to do, try taking a break.

Self care motivates. When you feel like you don’t want to fight anymore, make sure to enjoy some me-time, so that you feel like fighting again.

However Self care is not only about relaxing. The most important part of self-care is what we do everyday, what we eat, how much we exercise.

Do you think you practice self care enough? What are the best ways to relax for you? I would love to know.

And remember:

There is no shortcut. It takes time to build a better, stronger version of yourself.

Storytime: How an angel left my side


So today I’ve prepared something heart breaking. So grab a tissue box and let’s get to it.

In summer (18.7.) I lost my best friend. His name was Nero and he was a golden retriever.


Me and my whole family had a special relationship with him. He was an irreplaceable member from the day one. Meaning he was my second brother and my parents took him as their son.

He had a beautiful personality, friendly, playful, cuddly and very loving. He was also very stubborn. There was no way to train him. He had his own head, but he was very clever and could communicate well.

Nero loved socks, so every time he would want to cuddle or play, he stole one of your socks and brought it to you as a payment. He also cared for his stuffed animals dearly (at least for some of them). The truth is he didn’t have to try hard to get your attention. He was very cute and everyone loved his company.


Even though, he was born as a last puppy and was smallest and whitest of all the pups, he was the best dog we could wish for.


At the beginning of summer, when we were running through the forest together, I wouldn’t even imagine that he would be gone so soon. But I knew it would come one day, he wasn’t young anymore. I also asked him to let me know when his time comes…

Nero stopped eating one day, we had hard time to feed him his favorite foods. I knew something was wrong, the moment when he lost interest in sleeping with me in my bed (we would cuddle every night – he refused to fall asleep unless I held his paw).



We finally decided to go to the vet on Saturday. They didn’t know what was wrong with him and the blood wasn’t taken during weekends, so they sent us home with cannula in his leg and infusion, so that he would feel better until Monday.

We spent the whole day taking care of him, comforting him and making sure he was feeling better. He was such a good boy. Even though he was absolutely terrified of the whole infusion thing, he came when called obediently waiting for us to connect him to his treatment. I was so proud. On Sunday morning, when I took a bath and couldn’t keep him company, Nero took out his cannula. You can see how stubborn he was. This was sign for me, I realized that he had enough.


In the end he didn’t hurt himself and I didn’t want him to suffer again, so we left it at that. However, in the night his condition worsened and we didn’t know what to do. He was in so much pain and I suffered just looking at his suffering. We took him to the vet again, and what he found out broke our hearts.

He had a tumor on the liver (therefore cancer), 10x5cm, which is huge to my belief and I can’t even imagine how much he suffered.

We decided that he should go to heaven because he has been fighting this battle for 2 weeks and we couldn’t help him. We knew it was time. And he knew that too, we took him outside for a few moments, just so he would pee and feel like a dog for a while, but he wasn’t interested. He was just standing there, staring at us while we cried, like he wanted to remember our faces.

It hurts until now and I know it will hurt forever. Because loosing someone so close to you is never easy. He fell asleep in my hands calm, and ready.  I do really miss him and love him. That will never change.


Dogs are much stronger than they look. If you can imagine how much our dogs love us. How big their hearts are. That’s how much they fight, how much they want to be with us.

So to every dog owner out there, cherish and love your dog to the bits, because I promise you, they can feel it, and they will fight accordingly.

Have you ever lost your pet? How did you overcome the pain?